I've also found out something else. I don't consider myself to be a high energy person. Not too sure my reasoning. But with a new space of 2 free hours in my day, I find myself needing something to fill it. I can only spend so much time on school before that gets old. I already spend a lot of time on my computer. I am trying to get out to ride more despite the persistent bad weather. My people. Yes they are there. And other chores and things. But i can have an extremely short attention span.
I was in to my dad's store today visiting him. I told him i was bored and restless, that i need to find a source of income and occupation. "Why?" he asks. Not for the income reasons. He knows i have to pay for school and the horse. "Find a project" he says. "Relax" he says. I can't. I'm used to going. All of the time. From one thing to the other. I am happiest doing that. I'm not used to being the one home and not working every day. It's not easy to find projects when you usually don't have time to come up with them. It's just not that simple. Maybe I'm making it more complicated. I dunno.I feel full of energy at the end of the day. It may just be restlessness. But it's not helping me sleep. And it's not helping me feel any better. I honestly didn't think the work at the clinic took that much out of me. Maybe it had something to do with the interactions with my coworkers, or the constant moving and running up and down the stairs. Again, I dunno. maybe it's just something I have to get used to as i continue my search for part time employment. We shall see.
Load Me Up
I have come upon a few realizations today. One being that it is very hard to find a job this time of year. And I feel apt to kill the next person who says..."we may be hiring in the spring. I can take your resume and put it on file." Well guess what? I didn't put all that time and effort into that resume just so you can file it away never to call me. Nor do i appreciate being turned away... again. It takes a lot out of a person, all that rejection. I'm feeling not-too-hot right now. But i'll get over it, as my mission "get a job" is not accomplished. The show must go on.
Comments
8:36 am | 23 January 2004Laura
Maria, here's a project that you don't even have to take time to think of, and it's also relaxing.....READ. Okay, I know you do enough of that for school, but that's all info. I'm talking about fiction, or horror if you're into that, or even biography (in some cases, that's fiction). Don't think of it as a chore, but as something that will keep you occupied and maybe even entertain you.
That, or use your two hours to catch up on that long list of "must watch movies" Come and visit me, I have shelves of both.