Keep on Breathing
Today is almost like spring. . . until you step outside. I'm ready for spring. I think everyone is. Especially with this most recent cold snap. Alas, i think we have a few more weeks left before it starts to warm up consistently.
It has been a fast winter. Much faster than i thought it would go by. I thought this winter without school would drag by and be stressful. It has not drug by, and i didn't have the stresses i thought i would, i had others instead. Two bouts of sickness (i hate being sick), and the loss of one of my strongest role models, my grandmother, have made for a bit of a rough winter. At least work and home life have stayed fairly consistent. The illness's i got over, nothing major, the rest will have to heal with time. It's odd, i think of all of the happy memories, and right now it hurts when it is supposed to make me feel better. I am not sure that the sad empty feeling will ever completely go away, but i know that with time and by my family banding together we will all heal in time. Until then, it is still fresh, and raw, and it hurts.
In unrelated news:
I know i am paying off my student loan at a brisk pace, but it still feels like i will be paying it forever.... and ever. Damn money monster. I think it makes it worse knowing all of the things i could be doing with the money instead. I guess i can't be too upset though. It did allow to get my degree. If only the ridiculous interest rate didn't make me feel as if i was running in place.